Let's see, not really much to tell, but I'll recap what I can.
Classes ended Tuesday and I woke up relatively early to head to the big city with n-chan. Unfortunately, it was raining And windy, oh And cold, so that trip was only so fun...i think i kinda damaged my umbrella, though judging by the looks of all the broken ones i'm glad my only suffered a little. on a small side-track, that got me to thinking about how easily, perhaps subconciously most of the time, we become attached to our stuff. Might just be me though..haha...
Anyways, I managed to avoid buying a lot of "stuff" though I was hella tempted. For instance, I saw some cute costumes, and some cute keychains, but seriously? i didn't need them, so i was able to stop myself haha. (which is good, 'cause i've ended up spending hells of money already..) We also didn't end up going to the kyuudou store after all, as i realized we'd have to go by subway, and let's face it: i'm pretty chicken when it comes to public transportation..x_x the whole getting lost thing or missing my stop still freaks me out even if it wouldn't really be a huge deal...heeeh
In any case, we did check out a lot of the department stores, and the only thing I did spend my money on, besides the bus tickets, was bread. And I have to say, it was a pretty tasty purchase haha. I kind of ended up with a headache later on though, but was able to sleep it off. I was just glad that the migraine didn't make me vomit this time haha.....
We also didn't end up going to the bar, later that evening, like n-chan had wanted, which made me ask (other) j-chan if he wanted to go to dinner...but alas that didn't work out. (btw, trying to get together was like nearly impossible haha, though i'm also incredibly impatient lol.)
went to karaoke alone on thursday, major lame i know haha. but anyways, somehow, i managed to trick myself into pampering/pitying myself by letting myself (jeez too many myselfs, talk about selfish :P) down a pizza, pasta, and an ice cream...(wish i didn't have to Down i though, it was quite tasty, but i can see why breaks for others to sing are needed... >_< of course i didn't htink about it, so not only did i spend a lot, i ate way too much food, and just felt like a pig...whoot for being human...(or american?) XP) kya~!...and that, my friends is when karaoke gets expensive lol. at least now i have the somewhat confidence to order myself on the phone (and apparently w-kun and n-chan managed to too haha), duno why we made such a big deal lol. plus, i found out that "rezabe-shon" is not a word in the Japanese language i guess haha....they must think i'm such an idiot lol...
Let's see, xmas eve was fun. cake, a drink or two, and home-made chilli, which proud to say, i did make myself, though i was really glad that n-chan decided to help. Anyways, we watched the music show, made our commentary and soon fell asleep around 1 i think? maybe...haha.
Moving on, yesterday, xmas was fun too. Although riding around in the snow is tough work! almost as much as riding around in the strong wind haha. But i managed to get everything done, after a phone call to j-chan lol about the difference between white wine and cooking wine lol, luckily the white wine was cheaper and less of and the better choice- talk about crazy luck! (tho i still have some of that left over..x_x)
Kinda feel a bit bad about not eating his food, though we did drink his coke haha. And i did ask for half of his roll cake...heh. Cake...lol. :3 We made cheese fondue and bread and the cream of potato soup (tho it was less creamy and seasoned this time..heh..shoulda let it cook longer but i always worry when the ppl i'm cooking for get hungry heh) and it was okay, though not quite as a hit as the chilli was for n-chan haha. Plus J-chan kept talking about how he sucked at cutting lol. I realized i never really think about how to cut food, i just do lol, so directing ppl kinda feels silly for me lol. On a side note, the cake was pretty delicious (and cute) lol, though I've now eaten 2 of the same kind in a row heeeh...i'm stacking on the pounds...gak...def gonna have to ride them off...or something x_x
Anyways, we watched two movies, 300 and Anchorman, neither of which I particarly liked, but ah well. I can now see I've seen them lol...if that can indeed be considered any kind of tick in my record post haha. So he went home around 11:30 or so, and I suppose he made it home all right.
As for the rest of my plans, I still have karaoke/lunch today with J-chan (excited!), Sendai tomorrow with the Y-kun( ALSO excited, since i love pretty lights and he'd help me get the kyuudou shop), and the new year's even invite to Y-chan's house, which I'm pretty looking forward to getting the fruits and arranging the flower bouquet...however, I haven't heard from her yet...I might call her a day or two before hand if I don't...heh. It's not being pushy, if she Did express she was inviting me for a specific date right? heh.
oh! something else i wanted to mention. Y-kun said he might help me do a live! i'm so excited, and i hope i can. mom said she had another premonition about me "having a singing career" in japan, which i find amusing and interesting lol. Duno about that, I don't know if I want to become really famous, as i do have a couple things I'm not proud of for doing in the past....plus im' so lazy! and i'm smart enough to know that a Talent's life is far from restful....heh. Haaah. I guess I just want to sing for an audience, no matter the age or group size lol. But that kind of job doesn't really pay either. Plus I'd have to work out the details of untangling myself from this job I've nestled into as well...but those are details that'll I'll have to work out when I get there, right?
Speaking of which, I've been thinking more and more of how I should stay. Whether it be selfish or cowardly, I don't know. I know I said I wouldn't run away, but I've been so tired trying for so long to get to d-chan's heart, but it's just not happening. And perhaps I'm tired of being tired of it. Personally, pursuing my life here, and even a singing career sounds far better. Even if I really did love him. Even if I still do. Even if sadness or loneliness will follow me no matter which path I choose.
Anyways, onto a slightly bouncier note, I've had a couple interesting dreams lately, though most of the details have, naturally faded away lol. And though this may not be the place for it, I'd like to anyways. It's my space after all, right? haha. One was where I was at a high school with, for some reason, G-chan, and we were being taught by my principal from here. I remember that G-chan had hurt herself by accident in class during a test, and I volunteered to get some ice. Though I searched the school, I couldn't find any. Then I looked outside and realized there was snow on the ground, and low and behold, ice! So I went to grab the ice, but then I realized there were some creatures there. Maybe human? Anyways, they were doing archery out in the wooded area behind the school, and challenged me to shoot with them. And i guess i didn't have a choice, so i did, though i didn't get beyond loading the bow, when i realized i had to go back to class. So i ran back to class, (tho not sure if i still had the ice lol), and realized i had failed my test, even though i had gone to help a friend, and even explained what happened lol.
i had a 2nd dream, about an avalanche, a recurring dream, except the characters changed slightly... Basically I was watching these anime characters interacting, or rather fighting, then I joined in the plot, though I can't really remember what happened...I just really remember towards the end, where the mountain started to shake and it was getting dark out, and I saw an avalanche coming. The second one I think most of us survived...but then a second one came. And I just remember staring up at the rushing cloud of snow coming towards us, the crumbling buildings and the flying cars, tho one weird thing, was that i felt like i was watching it on T.V. heh... (and clearly i've watched too much anime heh). And I do remember a girl beside me screaming the name of a friend (m-chan). It was one of those annoying, high pitched screams, and i have no idea why she screamed it heh..(haven't quite analyzed these dreams yet lol) Anyways, the avalanche came and went. By the time it ended, it was fully night time and the houses along the mountain were lit up with lights, as well as the houses below the mountain. And i remember the narration for some odd reason "And the whole town was blanketed in snow." Which is quite the lovely narration for a natural disaster that had just occurred heh. When I woke (for real) i told n-chan about the dream and she said i must've been cold haha. One truly strange thing was that, afterwards, she must've been checking the news or weather and said that this city had an avalanche warning! weird?! though luckily, i think it was a different part of the city, and closer to the mountains...though i only say lucky because it meant our lives weren't in danger...though, i also of course hope, no one else was injured of course. it's "funny" but although i haven't really experienced a natural disaster i sure dream about them alot, flooding, avalanches and fires among them...and boy, that terror sure is real...heh..
anyways, 3rd dream last night, i dreamed i was at home, and mom was telling us it was late and to go to bed. i dont' really remember much other than washing dishes and my sister, watching tv, saying "what bedtime?" then mom asking "do you have food at least?" and her nodding her head, then shaking her head, but then me finding snacks and Tupperware containers of food on the shelf haha. On top of that, we were downstairs of our old old house, back in c-town. haha. weird huh. I can generally place most of my dreams, but this one just made no sense lol.
anyways, that's the extent of excitement of my life. oh, tho i did recieve an etch-a sketch (japanese) from j-chan which ive found amusing. plus he seemed to like the chocolate, though it was kinda lame of me, i know..heh. plus i had the "mouthful" drink i got from sendai. the taste was okay i guess...though really the fantasy geek in me wanted it for the cute, pretty bottle lol. go figure :P
anyways (i say that way too much), that's really it, i'm outta ideas. and that used up all my extra time lol, yay at least. also, been taking pics yay! tho mostly of random shit, not events, but i do have them...:)
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