I just looked at the time...

it said 7:11 and I laughed to myself.

Okay, enough non-Japan related.


So it's 7:11 and I thought about doing a quick post before I left. It looks like it'll probably rain today, although hopefully it'll hold out until I get to school. One of these days I might not be so lucky...I really gotta find a weather website for this area. I'd really like for it to hold out until I get home tonight...but there's on way that'd always happen.

It's ridiculous to think the amount of plastic trash that's built up already. Still trying to figure out if I should throw away my compostable or wait until Friday. I guess I can wait, since the bag's not full yet. And if it stinks I can always tie it up. Yup, that's good.

Didn't find the motivation to write my fanfiction this weekend. Every time I think about it for real, it ends up sounding like a stupid idea. Plus, some stories I've seen, the writers spend over a year doing just 10 chapters. No such motivation for me...

Heck, I barely had enough motivation to sew anything together. Only managed to fix my purse...

Looks like the Jolly ranchers might not be able to be saved...But I really want to use them, since I said I would...I just duno how to make them unsticky...I've tried rinsing them...but it seems to have ruined a few...haaa....

Paycheck was nice, nicer than I thought it'd be at least.

Also, on a side note and nothing japan-related, d-chan hasn't talked to me in a few days. I guess that's just as well. I did plenty to deserve it. I hate the way he always tries to talk to me, then it's like he knows he still has me hooked, so he can jerk me around however he likes. I hate it. But on a more level manner, I realized in order to force my selfish ego back down, I just have to remember all the stuff I'm guilty of doing to him. So really, then, I feel it's better this way. Maybe that's what true love is about I guess. That sad darkness in my heart makes me realize that my wish can't ever come true. I can't let it. And as much as it makes me lonely, or laugh sadly, all I have to do is leave it up to him. And then I know we'd never see each other again. It's okay if it's not like me to give up. It's still selfish. And if it hurts him, then I can't afford it. And it's not like he's done much to show he wants it either.

だから、いいんです。別に。 Yoshi. That's the attitude I have to keep.